Adoration with monstrance

Adoration is my favorite devotion, why?

Imagine a date with Jesus.

You get dress up because you want to look nice for the king. You arrive early because you don’t want to keep the king waiting. Sitting across from Jesus, you wonder what to say to the creator of the universe. All of a sudden, he speaks. He asks you, how are you doing? At first, you try to give a generic answer, but Jesus is having none of it. He wants the truth.

Through Eucharistic adoration, I’ve been on that date.

What is Adoration?

I began adoration at the 24-hour chapel. Admittedly I was nervous. Despite being an introvert, staying one hour in silence did not sound appealing. Yet I had wanted to challenge myself. In Matthew Kelly’s book, Rediscovering Catholicism, he challenges the reader to devote one hour to adoration.

Thus, it began as a challenge

Radical Encounter

It turned into a radical encounter with the Lord

And he came to his disciples and found them sleeping and he said to Peter, “So could you not watch with me for one hour? Watch and pray so that you may not fall into temptation; the spirit is willing but the flesh is indeed weak” Matthew 26:40-41

I have been tempted. I have heard the lies whispered in the shadows of the night.

Satan tells me that I am:

  • unworthy
  • unlovable
  • should be anxious about my future

Yet for the one hour in front of the blessed sacrament, I get to lay all of that down in front of the king of the universe. Jesus, who loves me, wants desperately to hear me and spend time with me. He tells me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).

Jesus came so that you can have an abundant life. He doesn’t want you to fall into the lies of the evil one. I challenge you to spend one hour in front of the Blessed Sacrament weekly. Your life will be forever changed.

Mountain top experience, now what?

So for the gospel reading of August 6th, we have the story of the transfiguration. In this story, Jesus has chosen his closest followers to come with him and pray on a mountain. The gospel describes how Jesus’ appearance changes and he is dressed in dazzling white. Here for the first time the disciples’ are experiencing, not just Jesus the human being, but Jesus in his full glory. Every Christian and every Catholic also will eventually have a similar experience in which they experience the presence of Christ in a real and tangible way. For more info about this, see my blog post, Have you had a transformation experience? What happens afterwords? How should we respond? Why do we have such experiences in the first place?
All these questions can be answered by looking at Luke 9:33-35. Having experienced Jesus in his fully glory, Peter exclaims, “Master, it is good that we are here; let us make three tents, one for you, one for Moses, and one for Elijah.”  It is so easy to make the same mistake as Peter. We  can have  an amazing Godly experience and want to stay there forever. We want to pitch our tent. Every time we pray, go to mass or adoration or listen to music, we expect God to speak to us in the same way, to have the same emotional high.
I am guilty of this way of thinking. I remember when I first started taking my Christian walk seriously. The churches I attended were mainly non-denominational churches and sometimes my mother’s Baptist church, I remember watching other people have emotional responses to either the pastor’s sermon, the music, or a particular prayer and I wouldn’t feel anything and wouldn’t know how to respond. I took Spiritual formations at Regent University and there was a moment where the whole room erupted in spontaneous praise, and I did not know what to do. I felt like my faith was somehow inferior because I lacked these emotional responses. Luckily I have the type of personality that doesn’t renege on her commitments and I had made a commitment to follow Jesus.
Finally a member of my spiritual formation small group invited me to her very large non-denominational church. I don’t know what made that night different or why God decided to speak to me, but I finally had that mountain top experience. For awhile I would chase after these emotional highs, and only attend non-denominational or pentecostal services. I evaluated my relationship with Christ with how on fire I was about my faith. Just ask my parents lol, I couldn’t do anything that wasn’t Christian minded. Eventually though I couldn’t keep up especially after becoming Catholic. My Mom remarked that she was glad that the Catholic church has mellowed me out, but it wasn’t just a mellowing, I was becoming cold and dead. So where did I go wrong?
After Peter makes his statement about pitching a tent, God speaks up in verse 35, “This is my chosen son; listen to Him.” God gives us these amazing experiences, but he doesn’t want us to seek after these experiences, He wants us to seek after Him and obey Him. So If you are lucky enough to have one of these transformation or mountain top experiences, learn from Peter, don’t try to pitch a tent there. First of all, it is exhausting to be spiritually high all the time, and secondly we have all of  heaven to have these amazing experiences with God. Instead strive to obey God; don’t go back to the way you were before. If you have not had such an experience, try to persevere in obedience for surely by your obedience you will encounter God. Take advantage of all the different ways one can encounter God in the Catholic Church.
As for me, I am trying to develop Godly habits such as daily prayer, daily scripture reading, and going to Mass and adoration when I can.
A quote from my  Holy Spirit devotion book is really insightful, ” The Spirit reveals the glory of God to us in those moments when we transcend our daily life and catch a glimpse of the grander and Holiness of God. These moments gives us the strength to walk the difficult path of daily life.”
My prayer for you all is the same as in the book, “unfold the veil for a moment, Lord and let us see Your glory.”

Adoration: the treasure of the Catholic Church

I finally returned to the perpetual adoration chapel after a very prolonged absence. I honestly can’t explain why it took me so long to return. Perhaps it was arrogance or even ignorance in that I believed I didn’t need it. However, I was very much wrong. In this blog post, I’d like to share what adoration is and my journey towards adoration
For those who don’t know, Eucharistc adoration is defined as, “adoring or honouring the Eucharistic Presence of Christ. In a deeper sense, it involves “the contemplation of the Mystery of Christ truly present before us”.
There are different types of Eucharistic adorations:
1. Benediction of the Blessed Sacrament
This is a church service, where groups of people gather to adore the Eucharist. Like the Mass, it has it’s own unique stricture, with a beginning, a middle, and an end. The beginning is marked by the hymn  O Salutaris Hostia and the benediction ends with the hymn, Tantum Ergo, and the divine praises. The middle is the longest part and can be silent prayer or have music.
2. Holy hour
This is one an individual or group of people decide to pray in front of the sacrement for an hour of silent prayer
3. 40 hours
This is a special devotion, where the eucharist is exposed for 40 hours. For example, 3:00 PM Friday to 6:00 AM Sunday. In this devotion there are special rituals such as: reciting a sequence of an Our Father, a Hail Mary, and a Glory be 5 times — the last cycle being for the intentions of the Holy Father.
4. Perpetual Adoration
This is when the Eucharist is exposed 24/7 and people take turns being in the presence of Christ.

I truly believe that adoration is the treasure of the Catholic Church. From very awkward beginnings, I have learned to truly appreciate this special devotion and the power it has had in transforming my life. My first experience with adoration was awkward indeed in that I was not well prepared at all for the experience. I was not Catholic at the time. In fact, I was quite the opposite; I was pentecostal of the vineyard variety. So how did I end up at adoration? Well I had been talking to a very close Catholic friend about good preaching. I had asked him, who his favorite preachers where. He mentioned Father Mike Jolly from Saint Joan of Arc Church. I said that I’d be interested in hearing him preach, but didn’t want to go to Mass on Sunday. He invited me to adoration that was geared towards Youth and Young Adults. Later I would know it as a benediction service. Unfortunately the priest was not holding the service that night. This was of course disappointing, but since I was already on my way to the church, I decided to still attend. Turns out that since there was no priest, the service was very much striped down. I don’t remember much except feeling a bit bewildered. All the required hymns were in latin so of course I didn’t know them. Secondly it was silent prayer for an hour. I don’t recall up until that point ever praying silently for that long. I remember feeling very small, like a child. I kept getting distracted and looking around. I also felt different because everyone was kneeling, but I was not due to my disability. Yet in the mist of all these negative feelings, I definitely got a sense of sacredness and peace that was missing in my own church’s Young Adult service.
As a student working on my Masters in church history, I wanted to investigate the reasoning behind Eucharistic adoration. It is through this investigation that I read John 6:48-58. This is also known as the bread of life discourse, in which Jesus tells us that his flesh will be poured out for the whole world and that his flesh is real food and his blood is real drink. Furthermore, we must eat his flesh and drink his blood to have eternal life. I began to believe that this was a direct reference to the Eucharist and that the bread and wine was not just a mere symbol, but is literally transformed into the body and blood of Christ. Hence, I had began to accept the source and summit of the Catholic faith.
Having come to this revelation and not getting very convincing answers from my pastor, I began to explore the Catholic church in earnest. I had heard about Catholic underground, a ministry that offered benediction of the blessed sacrament and even though I wasn’t Catholic, I decided to attend. This was a much better experience than the first time. They had praise and worship music. I still didn’t know the latin hymns, but it put me at ease. I remember that I got the same peaceful feeling. It dawn on me that one doesn’t need artificial lights or a loud praise band to make an impact. While in my previous church I had always questioned my emotional response since the service was designed to elicit emotion, here I knew that my emotional response was authentic because the purpose of the service was to strictly praise Jesus.
While in the process of becoming Catholic, I joined 2096, a weekly adoration group at Saint Matthew’s Catholic church. It was here that I found the support and encouragement to continue my journey as well as meeting life long friends. Unfortunate 2096 would be disbanded and I would soon have to search for other avenues for adoration.
Having unfortunately lost my weekly adoration group, I was also in the process of reading Rediscovering Catholicism by Matthew Kelly. This book was very impactful and one of the things it encouraged was holy hour devotion.  I had never done a holy hour, I had always done benediction with light contemplative music. I was nervous about the prospect of being alone with Jesus in silence for an hour. What do I talk about; what do I wear? Over the years I’ve found what works for me and what doesn’t and I know that it has helped my relationship with Jesus, but also the Catholic church.
I hope that my testimony encourages you to, not only seek out adoration for yourself, but encourage others, who might benefit from the peace that comes from being in the presence of Christ. It can be scary and challenging to sit in silence especially in today’s world of noise, but I promise you that you will have peace, a newfound respect for the Eucharist, and an increase in faith.

Have you had a transformational experience?

If you’ve ever taken the time to read the daily Mass reading on a consistent basis, you may have noticed that The Catholic church at least tries to organize the reading around a theme. For instance, for liturgical year C cycle II, the 16th Sunday in ordinary time, the readings were Genesis 18:1-10, Psalms 15:2-5, Colossians 1:24-28 and Luke 10:38-42 and for July 18th we have Micah 6:1-4, 6-8 and Matthew 12:38-42. In both Genesis 18:1-10 and Luke 10:38-42, we are presented with people,  who are trying to entertain an important guest. In Genesis, we have  Abraham, who is visited by three men. It is heavily implied that these men have been sent by the Lord. He invites his guest to rest while he prepares a meal for them. He quickly delegates various responsibilities to the different people in the household. After the meal has been prepared , Abraham sits with his guest and enjoys their company. The guest bless Abraham by saying that when they return his wife, Sarah will be pregnant with his child.
In Luke 10:38-42, we are presented with Mary and Martha. Martha, like Abraham, is entertaining an important guest, Jesus Christ. Martha is described as being distracted, anxious and worried about entertaining her guest. She wants her sister Mary to remove herself from the feet of Jesus and help her. Jesus rebukes her and states that Martha has chosen to worry about many things when only one thing is needed and that Mary has chosen the good portion. Why is it that Martha gets rebuked by Jesus for wanting to delegate her responsiblities and yet Abraham essentially does the same thing and gets a blessing?
The key has to do with resting and enjoying the moment. Abraham, unlike Martha, was not anxious, worried, or distracted. He served his guest while still managing to sit and listen to them. Paul tells us in the Colossians readings that we too can serve his church without anxiety or worry because of the mystery, which is that we have Christ in us.
So how do we practically go through life without anxiety and worry. Well in the mist of our serving, we need to have Mary moments, where we have a transformation experience with Jesus.  This brings me to July 18th’s gospel. In Matthew 12:38-42, Jesus rebukes the scribes, who ask for a sign. Jesus, in verse 42, mentions the queen of the south. He says, “At the judgment the queen of the south will arise with this generation and condemn it, because she came from the ends of the earth to hear the wisdom of Solomon; and there is something greater than Solomon here.” Once again, Jesus is reminding us that he is the wisdom that we should seek. He is the Son of God. If we go out of our way, like the queen of the south did for man’s wisdom; how much more should we be willing to travel to experience the wisdom that comes from Christ? Unfortunately though, there are so many people, who have never been inwardly transformed by the wisdom of Christ, because for whatever reason we don’t rest in him.
I’ve had the joy of having a transformation experience. The best way to describe it is to use emotional language, but it isn’t really a feeling. It is an assurance deep inside yourself that there exist something greater than yourself; a sort of peace that passes all understanding. Suddenly a weight has been lifted and you feel free and you have no fear or worry. It is the place where the world disappears and you are alone, but yet not alone. it is in this place that you can feel God wrap his loving arms around you. It is not something that is limited to a one time experience, but rather it is an experience that we should carry with us everyday.
God’s mercies are new everyday and each day offers a new opportunity to go into that deep place, where you can taste heaven and feel yourself sitting at the feet of Jesus. God desires to share himself with you and he has gifted his church with numerous opportunities to experience him intimately. The first way is through the unbloody sacrifice of the mass, in which God represents himself in the form of bread and wine so that we may consume him and be one. The second way is through adoration in front of the consecrated bread. It is here that we have a direct line to experience the presence of Christ directly. I liken the difference to talking to your lover on the cell phone verses going on a date. While one can have intimacy over the phone, it is another level when you can be in the real presence of your lover. Similarly when we pray, we are talking to God on the cell phone, but when we pray in adoration, we are essentially going on a date with Jesus. Confession can also be a moment for transformation in which we feel God’s love through hearing the words, “you are forgiven.” Lastly sacramentals such as the rosary and praise and worship can offer opportunities to have a transformation experience. Ultimately each person is different and experiences God in different ways; however, we should always strive to rest in Christ and to be transformed by his presence, which is real and inviting.