I am weak! I need freedom from my weakness. This is how I used to think. Now I am attempting to embrace my weakness.
No, I am not throwing myself a pity party, nor am I being self-deprecating. Rather I am attempting to exercise my freedom. Confused? Let me explain.
Society states that what is important is success, wealth, and happiness. Al these things we should strive to grasps or possess. But what if you don’t have those things? Are you helpless? Are you unlovable or discontent?
These are the thoughts I wrestle with and it is easy for me to fall into despair. Yet the good news of Jesus Christ frees us from these thoughts and attitudes. It tells me that it is okay to be weak. The God, who loved me, created me with all my imperfections, doubts and fears. Freedom comes when we receive the good news.
How I viewed Freedom
Often it’s easy to view freedom as walking away from something rather than walking towards someone. I heard the following example:
Imagine you are a slave. You are being bided on when out of the corner of your eye you see a man. He pays the highest price for you. You cautiously go up to the man worried about your fate. Then you hear the words, “I freed you.” The man tells you to go live your life, but don’t fall into slavery.
I know that in my own life that is how I viewed God. To me, God is like the man, who paid the highest price. I thought I was right with God if I did not fall into sin. Yet my thought process is slowly changing.
“ Freedom is not just the absence of slavery to sin, but the presence of a love relationship with God”
My thought process began to change when reading the above quote. While I strive to not sin, to be in freedom requires more. It requires a relationship with God my father.
Freedom Through Unbound
I first read the quote in the workbook for the Unbound course; so what is Unbound?
Unbound is a book and class that offers Christians a practical guide to Deliverance. Now when my small group leader approached me about doing this course, I had no opinion. I didn’t really know about deliverance.
Honestly, If I had known I probably would have stayed away. I tend to be rational and logical. I am not the type of person to diagnose every problem as a spiritual disease.
But I knew nothing and therefore have sat through three lessons on deliverance. So what is deliverance?
Neal Lozano defines deliverance as, “ the breaking of power behind habitual patterns of thinking and acting that limit our freedom to accept God’s love and turn away from that which blocks His love.”1
Thus deliverance is much less about casting out evil spirits. Rather it is about renouncing the lies the spirits make us believe.
What I Want From Unbound
I am excited about the journey. God wants to deliver me from lies of my own making. I have come to realize that I lack trust in God’s promises. I want to be able to say with the Psalmist:
Even though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff
they comfort me. Psalm 23:4 (RSV second Catholic edition)
I want to know that God’s got me regardless of the circumstances. I think renouncing fear will help me trust God’s goodness. Renouncing perfectionism will help me rely on God and not myself.
I am weak, but my God is strong.
- Neal Lozano, Unbound: A Practical Guide to Deliverence(Chosen Books 2010), 67 ↩
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